Nothing or Something

No updates.  This months consejo was scheduled for Thursday, August 26th and I went back to confirm the time and it had been changed.  It is Monday!  We will not be making this months, no referral, no recommendation to parent our two precious daughters= no match at a consejo meeting.

How does this make me fee?  Sad, Disappointed, Wondering, Unfair, Angry, LIKE STOMPING MY FEET!!!

What am I going to do with these feelings?  Oh, feel them, all of them!  Will I stomp my feet?  No, But I will not deny them, I feel them, STRONG, and POINTED, even as I write this post, I feel them knowing that I will/am giving these to God.  He knows my thoughts, He knew before I discovered the change how I would feel and respond.  I find this comforting and frustrating at the same time.

Why, why, why?  Oh OUR GIRLS have such an incredible story about their journey home already! They are truly AMAZING and this is why I can feel the emotions and give them to God and TRUST that HE is not wasting the steps orchestrated in joining our family. 

Is it EASY?  OH NO!!! ABSOLUTELY NOT!

Do I like it?  NOTONE BIT!

Why do I do it? FAITH, it is how I live my life and I must live it out consistently, not conveniently!

Do I fail!  OFTEN, Thank GOD for FORGIVENESS!