Catching My Breathe

Where to begin... last Thursday we were waiting for the call that the US Embassy in Peru had our final paperwork and to FINALLY get the o.k to book our tickets.  I had contacted three different travel agents to price check and arrange flights that would make most sense, like not flying out of Lima at 1:25 am or spending the night someplace state side as a layover.  Instead the phone call came that an error that had been noted for correction over a year ago, was not corrected and this paperwork was not reviewed by our agency until it was to be turned in.  MAJOR ERROR


Of course it was another holiday weekend so Friday was a wash.  Monday we heard from the agency that it was a holiday in Peru, the courts were closed and the individual needed to assist us is on vacation until Thursday!  So here we wait, there our daughters wait!  NOT ACCEPTABLE!!!

I have asked about what will happen on Thursday and Friday and the agency does not want to make any commitments, they say so I will not get my hopes up, too late for that!  My best guess is that if we get the correction on Thursday and turned into the Embassy on Friday (only a one hour window in the morning when it can be delivered) the Embassy will issue our Article 5.  The Article 5 is what we need to travel.  For the third week in a row the answers come on the last day of the week and so we wait through the weekend.  PLEASE pray that on Friday we get the o.k to book our tickets to travel in 7 days. 

I had an INTENSE dream last night, with vivid images of our daughters, we were all together, hugging, giggling, looking at each other, no words, just relishing in the reality that we could TOUCH one another... that we were finally a forever family!  Than I woke up and I was cuddled up with Saige (our dog) Ben was snoring and I was pretty certain I had just been kicked in the stomach!

Writing this post, which is always a time to pause and reflect, made me SMILE.  My dream screams MY love languages, quality time and physical touch.  Often times we love others with our love language, make sense I would dream this way especially not spending time with him.  I wonder what Julissa & Johanna's love languages are?  Quality time, physical touch, receiving gifts, acts of service or words of affirmation.....I cannot wait to discover.

Waiting is HARD

I get so excited when we get a document that indicates another step closer to being with our girls, then I wait and wait, no return phone calls, no return emails, no apparent sense of urgency for others! FINALLY, we heard that our documents are "on the floor" at homeland security, probably literally for all I know.  Our assigned Officer has been out since the 3rd and will return tomorrow.  Not sure why anyone covers her work while she is away, because she certainly didn't return calls or emails to me.  I will follow up with our Officer tomorrow and see if she will "get it off the floor" and process it!  (You would think they did this as a favor or for free and not a VERY EXPENSIVE service)!

Here I am in RAW!  This is what it is like sometimes when you give your heart and LOVE. 

I am trying to pace myself with packing and being ready, yet I want to be ready to fly on the drop of a dime!

So today I went on a little outing for the dramimine, pepto and midol for the girls and will pack my summer clothes in my suitcase tomorrow.


Thankful that I have my half pint sized friend, who appreciates having me home and will miss me to naughtiness when I FLY!

How sweet is Saige, our Puerto Rican rescue dog who came to us just in August. Here she is all cuddled up to me as i try to work on the computer......she loves me without a doubt!

KISSES IN THE WIND

(The Waiting Child's Lullabye-adapted for "OUR GIRLS")

WE hold you in our hearts and touch you in OUR dreams.

You are here each day with us, at least that's how it seems.

WE know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.

Oh GIRLS, WE love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...

Because tonight, just as always, WE blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hands until WE can be with you.

WE promise you, OUR darlings, WE’RE doing all that WE can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.

But for tonight, just as always, WE blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.

And let the angels bring the kisses that WE send to you each night.

Good night, J and J... Mama and Papa LOVE YOU BOTH and are so excited to be united as

A FOREVER FAMILY!!!! 

(Words in Orange- changed to share with both of our girls.)

Longing to hold "My Girls"

Tomorrow is July 22nd, my dear friend Jenn's birthday and the day I expect to hear from my newest friend that she has been officially matched with her daughter.  

How I long to be with my girls, to hold them, love on them, listen to their hopes, dreams, hurts, fears, and questions.  To watch as they learn and discover life outside of the orphanage and life with their forever family!

I just want to go to Peru and wait. wait for the referral. wait for the visas. wait for the rest of the "dates" and return to the USA as a family of 4.